After parking on Bragg Street and making a final swipe at my 5-year-old’s runny nose with a length of TP, we make our way up to Martin Luther King Jr. Drive, and survey the scene near the culmination of the anticipated parade.
We gravitate to the Wilbur Mapp bust of King, displaced from a burgeoning strip of South Elm Street by a 9-11 memorial and relocated to section of the Downtown Greenway in Ole Asheboro among monuments to local heroes like Nettie Coad and Dorothy Brown. My daughter and a classmate exclaim, “Martin Luther King!” and I wonder exactly what the name means to them.
I struggle with the way King’s message is often distorted when it’s repackaged for children — celebrating a “dream” that becomes more about individual accomplishment than collective progress, a commitment to nonviolence that verges on capitulation to oppression, or color-blindness as a blanket refusal to take responsibility for racism. If anything, I want her to take away the importance of black pride and the necessity of struggle.
When she reads the “Black lives matter” flag hanging at the entrance of our church, she examines the words in the manner one might name dinosaurs or planets. The sense of abstraction in her engagement with the slogan breaks my heart. Despite the fact that her mother, her grandmother, godmother and her favorite cousin are all black, I have to remind her that she also is black. And white. But no less black. She seems dubious. And yet, color is hardly neutral. She seems to sense that black is not considered desirable.
From the White House and our city to our household, white supremacy and internalized black inferiority reigns, no matter how mightily we struggle against it.
As we wait for the parade, I applaud the young man carrying the African liberation flag who chides those complaining about the biting cold, noting that this is nothing compared to the snarling dogs and firehoses that people went up to win freedom. But I also can’t argue with my daughter, who is telling me it isn’t fun for me to hold her hand when she wants to play instead of standing by my side.
The parade delivers. It’s a spectacle reinforcing better than any speech could that we’re “tied together in the single garment of destiny.” The shower of candy is the main event for my 5-year-old, but she’s also impressed by the woman who calmly walks up and hands her a pencil. She doesn’t pay any attention to the politicians waving from the stately motorcade, but we both delight in the classic cars — the late ’40s Studebaker pickup, the magnificent ’57 Chevy Bel Air and the super-cool ’70s low-rider that looks like a radiant sled.
There are high school marching bands; we caught Western Guilford and Smith, before the cold finally got the best of us, and a contingent of Bennett Belles. And, of course, step teams; the Lovely Ladiez & Gr8t Guyz’ “black power” routine is a highlight. They make us proud, and exalt education and creativity. They make us want to belong to a team, and aspire to excellence.
The police officers blocking the parade route with their cruisers also have a place in the panorama, as estranged as the relationship between the police and the community might be.
We exchange greetings with the parade participants. We may not know each person, but we’re part of this collective, flaws and all.
If all this sounds Pollyannaish and mushy, it’s because my sober, grownup analysis is chafing against the responsibility of instilling hope in children. Even Sharon Hightower, the District 1 representative on Greensboro City Council, reflects in a Facebook update: “This is MLK Jr. Holiday weekend. How can we even celebrate it when the Dream keeps getting crushed? Still much work to do.”
There’s a lesson from King’s “Letter from a Birmingham Jail” that will have to wait. I hope that like King, my girls, including the one who is barely a month old, will beg God to forgive them for being “patient with anything less than brotherhood [and sisterhood].”
As King told the “white moderate” clergy who expressed reservations about his campaign of nonviolent direct action in Birmingham, “When you are harried by day and haunted by night by the fact that you are a Negro, living constantly at tiptoe stance, never knowing what to expect next, and plagued with inner fears and outer resentments; when you are forever fighting a degenerating sense of ‘nobodyness’ — then you will understand why we find it so hard to wait. There comes a time when the cup of endurance runs over and men are no longer willing to be plunged into an abyss of injustice where they experience the bleakness of corroding despair. I hope, sirs, you can understand our legitimate and unavoidable impatience.”